where do i go from here?

i was told to be myself today ..... and i didn't know how to act or respond to that . all my life Ive tried to be nothing but me , but maybe i was delirious about who me really is ? maybe I'm not "ME" at the moment but deep inside im lonely , scared ,withdrawn from life , missing something that i am yet to find . if thats me then "ME" is weak i'd rather be forever "happy" than forever weak ..... and maybe im afraid of what you'd think. maybe all my insecurities are caving in on me lately like a brick wall unpaved . and maybe this is the begging of nothing , but this nothing is fricken important . what if im lost ? lost in the clouds , sky,moon,mars ,lost in myself. i wish there was a straight path that leads me to "me" , i bet if that fucking rode wasn't so jagged and confusing i would be where the "REAL ME" is .